Wednesday, February 17, 2010
{ 9:24 AM }
i dun know how long have i break up with firdaus effie already?!
maybe 1 month or not even 1 month yet?!i dun know sek?!all i know is that i seriousli
fucking love him man?!i dun know why?!whenever i do anything,i still think of him?!
why?i dun know?!i kinda puzzzled woth myself 2?!why i miss him?why must he be so cruel
to me?!why?i love him more than anyone i ever met even my mum?!i concentrated on him all
the while and then in the end is a most shocking and unbearable news?!he turn straight?!
he will never know how much i cry that day?!noone will know unless of course i post it here?!
not onli i get this news i get a very bad news also?!he delete me from facebook?!soob soob?!
i never know that my life is so bad and so i dun know how to say!?why must he turn straight?
why?i dun understand?!why why why?did i ill treated him?or did i do anything wrong?i dun know
and then today i pass by bukit panjang all i think of is firdaus effie again?!my god?!i cry and then
worst thing my mum beside me somemore?!quickili i wipe my tear and gone back to a good boy?
why my mum friends live there?!why whenever i try to forget him but the memories keep coming
back?i remember all the sad things and all the good thing?!i am seriousli a fucking ass hole why
why am i thinking of him now?!i dun know why sia?!i reali MISS HIM?!i dun know why?!
can someone tell me why?!i feel like hugging him and kiss ...?!but he is so cruel?!i .........?!
when can i forget him?!when?someone tell me?!even if i break up with him for so
long,i still fucking thinking of him sia?!why why why?!i love him so much?!and then few days
ago npcc bus went by bukit panjang government high and i think of him again?!walao shit me sia!
why?why am i thinking of effie now?i reali dun understand!why?!juz maybe i stead with him for
so long and then still missing him?!why?!?!if he reali read this i think he will be thinkin
i am very stupid bastard and stupid crazy?!and ask me fuck off?!seriousli?!i wan to be
cruel to him but he juz make me feel so so un bearable to hurt him sia?!walao?!i .........?!
and wat should i do now?i reali dun know sia!?!fuck sia?!i wonder how much tears have
roll down my eyes ever since i break with him and he do all this thing hurtin me?!i reali dun
know sia?!jibai fuck sia?!i fucking love him sia?!wat can i do?!i kinda sad?!i reali hope that
he read this and i also hope that he never read this?!i dun know lah?!should he read not?
i dun know sia?!GRRRR?!i still love my baby?!dun know why?!can someone tell me wat to do?!
plz...........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i needed suggestion!and a tight slap from someone!
FIRDAUS EFFIE!U MAKE ME HATE U AND LOVE U AT THE SAME TIME?!
I REALI DUN KNOW HOW SHOULD I REACT?!SIA LAH?!PLZ GOODESS PLZ HELP ME!
I REALI HOPE FIRDAUS EFFIE SEE THIS!HOPE THAT HE DUN SCOLD ME AND SAY
NASTY THINGS OF ME!PLZ HELP ME AND EFFIE IF U SEE THIS?!I HOPE THAT
U DUN MIND?!EVEN IF WE CANNOT BE BF WE CAN BE FRIENDS?!PLZ!
PLZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I REALI NID U...................................................!:(
K HOPE FIRDAUS EFFIE SEE THIS K LAH BB(I KNOW THIS WILL NEVER COME
TRUE COZ HE HATE ME AND NEVEER SEE MY BLOG WAN?!)DISSAPOINTED!
